May I just expose my uglies today? My morning routine is to wake up, grab a cup of coffee and head to my devotions chair. I read four devotions every morning…one is my Guideposts Daily Devotions book and the other three come through my gmail account.
So, I got comfy in my Jesus chair, picked up my phone to go to my gmail account and I unconsciously tapped on Facebook…grr! I had a few notifications so thought “Okay, Lord, I’ll just look at these quickly and then get to my devotions.”
Oh, silly girl.
One of the notifications tripped my trigger. Irritated me. Bugged me bad. Made my blood pressure go up. And why? It wasn’t even a comment made at me. It wasn’t a comment on anything I had posted. And yet, my ugly side came out. WHY????
I shut down Facebook and had a little conversation with the Lord. Why do I react this way to this person, Lord? Is it jealousy? I don’t think so. Is it class with me being on the lower end? Nope. What is it, Jesus? I don’t like this feeling so help me figure this out, Lord, so I can get over it and be at peace.
Well, God is good and my answer came in my devotions. Not just one devotion but THREE out of the four had the same message. Coincidence? I don’t think so.
I believe I have some insecurities going on. I want to be good enough. I want to be present enough. I want to be loved enough. For some reason I’ve allowed this person to make me feel less than any of those. This person has done me no wrong. It’s MY issue, and I have to remember that I am enough. I have to forgive myself for allowing this person to trip my trigger. To push my buttons. I have to love this person for who he/she is because, like me, he/she is enough. That is what God spoke to my heart through my devotions this morning.
The first devotion that I read hit home with me. So much so that I shared it with several lady friends via text messaging. So many great quotes but the one I shared along with the link was this: “God has uniquely and precisely created you with specific gifts and talents to do exactly what He has called you to do.” This applies to me. This applies to the person who I started out the day irritated with. This applies to you.
If you’d like to read the rest of the devotion titled “When Comparison Kills Confidence” by Sharon Jaynes, click here:
When I opened up my second devotion in my gmail account, just the title made my heart do a little dance of excitement. After reading the last devotion’s message and then seeing this title “You Were Custom Made,” I knew, without a doubt, that the Lord was speaking to me loud and clear. My favorite sentence in this devotion was: “This means you can stop trying to be somebody else and be satisfied with the unique person God made you to be.” WOW. I’m listening, Lord. I am who I am, and this other person is who he/she is!
If you’d like to read this devotion written by Dr. Tony Evans, check it out here:
In my Daily Guidepost Devotion, the author reminded me that “I am who God says I am, and He says I am perfect in His sight.” Yes, I am and so is this person too. Wish I could share a link on this one with you but it is in book form, not on-line. 🙂
Love who you are. You are uniquely made. You are who God says you are…beautiful, forgiven, chosen, loved. Be you. And remember…those people who sometimes irritate us and bring out our ugly side with no apparent reason why, they are also uniquely made, and God loves us all.
Find a good devotion to start your day. It can turn your uglies into lovelies. There you go. Wendy’s Wednesday Wisdom.